The one thing that's obvious about me is that I'm an open book person. I made a personal decision a long time ago to open the doors to my life. I live without a single lie or secret surrounding it. If you ever ask me a question, I'm giving you the full truth. If I lied to you, I would beat myself up about it.
One of the main reasons why I live an open life is because of my family. No disrespect to them, but my family is a walking soap opera. Every time I visit one of my family members, it's like I'm walking into a room full of secrets. Even though they look together and happy, it was accessorized with lies and secrets being swept under the rug. If someone found out about one, it's a bipolar war.
There were times when I would cry over the fact that I had a family that didn't care if I found out about some important things about me that I should've been aware of from the start. I don't care about their personal secrets. However, it becomes my business when I'm dragged into it without my consent.
I will never forget a time when I found out about these two secrets my mom kept from me. Once I addressed to her how sad and depressed I was because of it, all she said was "So what? I don't care if it hurts you. You want dinner?"
Picture eight family members you treasured a lot telling you the same thing?
It's a pattern that refused to go away in my family tree. That's why I hardly talk to them nowadays. Because of that, I refuse to live my life under a web of lies and secrets. It's a fear I have. That I'm going to be living with lies and secrets. In my book, not gonna happen.
The other reason is because of my observations and opinions on life. The situations and realizations that I go through living here in the 21st century is appealing to me, and apparently a lot of people. These stories are interesting and I know that people are relating to it. So what's the use of telling these stories in the third person when you can tell them exactly what you've gone through? Take them on the journey with you.
This is my explanation on why I live an open book life. Once again, no disrespect to my family or anyone related to them. That's their personal decision on wanting to live like that. They just motivated me on not wanting to live like that, and instead be open about who I am. To me, the truth is easier to deal with and easier to live with.