Wednesday, May 15, 2013

I Write To Exist


"For most writers, the act of writing is a form of therapy. A way of making sense of the world and their place within it" -James Runsie

I first heard this quote when I was watching the documentary J.K. Rowling: A Year In The Life. I watch this documentary a million times, for it reminds me of one of the people that inspired me to be a writer. But this quote really stood out to me. It's been years and I still can't shake it off my head. 

Why does this quote stay in my head? Why does it feel the need the follow me like a ghost?

I was puzzled about this for a long time. Then I began to experience reality. I began to go through these experiences that has slowly shaped me into the person that I am now. I've grown up a bit and I now understand this quote. I know it because it's how I feel about my life.

There are times when I walk around the streets of New York City and ask myself "Why am I here?" I have my moments when I feel so out of place with reality. I look at a sidewalk and wonder why it's there. I eat a sandwich and ask why does it take so good or if it's even real. I look at the trees and wonder how old they are. I even look at people and wonder if they're even real.

I sometimes feel like a ghost wandering around the face of the earth. So how do I stay in touch with reality? Through my writing.

Writing is not only a talent that I have. I consider it also my balance. With writing, it helps me understand myself while continuing to tell great stories. As I go through each experience I can't help but to express it in anyway I can. One of them is writing. So whether it's a funny experience or an incredibly dark, personal experience, I'll get my pen or laptop and start going at it.

When I listen or hear people express to me how they felt about a story I wrote, it makes me feel complete. Whether it's good or bad feedback, I'm greatful that they're actually reading my stories. It makes me feel like I truly play a part in life. It makes me feel like I truly exist.

So this is one of the reasons I write. I write to exist.