Tuesday, December 3, 2013

I'm Young And Mature But Not Grown


There are many young people like me that considers ourselves "old souls." Based on the many things I've experienced at an early age, I can't help but to notice that my maturity and perspectives on my life is well beyond my current early 20s. Sometimes, you ask yourself "Why am I experiencing all of this right now? I'm only in my 20s."

Life doesn't give you a proper answer. You can't help but to just go in the right direction of where your life is taking you. That's how I look at my life all the time.

I have lots of older friends. Most of my friends are in their 30s and above. I know most people consider that weird, but that was my life as like for the last three years. I'm sure I'll be clicking people permanently around my age when I entered the halls of college, but I'm just describing my current friendships.

These are the first of many examples why I seemingly grew up faster. But after a recent encounter with a few established older people, my true age was showing itself.

I was having a meeting with a few well established businessmen. There I was, acting all mighty, talking the way I'm always talking, etc. They rolled their eyes at me and paused me.

"How old are you?" they asked.

"I'm 22," I answered.

"Why are you trying to act old? You're far from trying to speak the way you speak. Just act like your age. You don't have to act grown to try and convince. Be young with a young taste in work."

It was in that moment that my true age came out. The wall of maturity I've been building for years was suddenly destroyed in one statement. I didn't know how to come up with a defense in that moment. I was totally embarrassed for I knew he was right. I was 22 trying to act 40, but this already 40 year old saw through my act, and embarrassed me in less than a minute.

I walked out that meeting realizing that I had to accept the truth. I am young and mature, but I got a long way to go before I call myself a grown man. Until then, I'm going to live my 20s the way it's supposed to be. Dancing, socializing, career obsessed, everything.